Today Unleash Asia Pacific 2011 has officially ended.
Opps..before this let me introduce a little about Unleash AP. It's actually an annual Asia Pacific Congress held to gather AIESEC executive from Asia Pacific region to sit together to analyze growth, develop and implement strategies towards AIESEC 2015 goal.
It was during the sharing session, i was sitting there quietly, listening to others sharing on how much they have learnt, grew and how far they have gone.Personally feel proud with Kim, a guy that i never imagine i can share that much of my personal feeling at the first time i meet him, basically i treat him as my younger brother, and this is where proud comes when he is doing such a good job and putting in so much of commitment and responsibility in Communication Department--a field that he never work before. Then it was my turn to share
"I actually didn't involve much in Unleash, however i did not regret for joining the CC team"
Ya, this is what i said, only 2 sentences. There are so many things in my mind, but i just don't feel like to say it out.
I have been follow up Unleash since last semester, being 1 of the person in charge to bid for Unleash from AIESEC International. I survey hotel quotation and prepare the budget, at one moment i love it until wanted to run for Congress Committee President (CCP), but in the end i didn't. There were 3 candidates running for this position, but even before the CCP being elected, i was assigned to be the financial controller for this event, by Zhang. Then, Faye was elected. Just because her working style is too much different and much random compared to mine, while both of us having super ironic characteristic, i quit from the team, else i know i will overtake her role.
However, Unleash is always in my heart, i can't stop myself from asking how is Unleash progress now, i can't pull myself away from checking their budget, yet can't stop myself from accepting Faye's invitation to become onsite committee. Soon, i started to quarrel or oppose Faye, for all the ridiculously last minute work and unprofessional way toward completing task. Until the last day of Unleash, frankly say, i did not involve much in Unleash, not generating much result.
It happen during the sharing also, when it was Zhang's turn, right after mine. He said that our president, Wei Jun is a new to international congress, so do Faye. So basically he is handling 2 newbies, who he could hardly trust. I was pain to hear this. He said this to me when he assigned me as the financial controller, without asking my permission, "I trust Wei Jun, individually, and i trust Faye, also individually, but i don't trust them when they work together. You know i seldom trust people, but i trust you, that's why i need you to handle the finance." I have totally throw this conversation out of my mind when i rejected Faye to be in the team. Then only i realize why he put me in the team, because he takes me as someone who can share his burden, but it turns out i leave him alone. I really wanted to ask him :"Zhang, are you disappointed with me after u get to know that i have leave the team?"
Still, i keep everything in my mind, silently, there is no point sharing my true feeling or asking him that question. I just don't wanna let them know, i actually care for Unleash a lot, i do.
